I have started and retreated from a number of blogs in the past few years. When I go back and read some of the posts I have written, I sometimes wonder who even wrote it. It should not surprise me that I am having trouble finding my bloggy voice. This is very similar to how my life has played out in recent years. Somewhere along the line I didn't know who I was anymore. Now I am starting to wonder if I have ever known.
I have been encouraged to ask myself the question, what do I want? And I have put off answering this for a long time. Recently, I can finally answer it with confidence. Here is my list:
What do I want?
Independence. I want to have my own opinions and for them to be respected and validated. I want to feel confident in my decisions.
Love. I want love without limits or barriers, without definition. I want love that respects, protects, and nurtures.
Family. I want to be close to my family and for us to be kind and supportive to each other, even in our differences. I want my children to know how much I love them and how special and important they are.
Friends. I want to maintain my friendships with the women important to me in my life. I don’t want to feel bad about taking this time for myself.
Career. I want to be successful in a career I believe in, being around people and helping others.
So this is where I will begin. With any luck I will find my voice right here in this list, bloggy and otherwise.
