I waited and waited for God to answer my prayers and when He finally did, I ignored him. I received what felt like a direct question from God challenging my behavior and choices. Instead of following in His path, I chose my own. I knew that I should trust His way. I even knew that He would bring me an abundance of blessings if I did.
I have trust issues, even with God. Lately, I have felt like it is easier to not care at all than to trust in anything. My need for distraction and instant gratification was growing stronger by the minute. It needed to come to an end, and quickly.
Lord, thank you for providing me with that brick wall, into which I hurled myself. Please help me pick up my pieces and try again. You are still with me, teaching me, loving me.
